Sunday, December 28, 2008

Mood: Anxious

At this point I am in the phase where I am pretty much just plowing forward toward my trip, because if I stop and think about what I'm doing I'll freak out. For those of you stumbling on this I'm moving to Bangkok, Thailand (my plane leaves in about 30 hours). I've been out of the country but never lived outside of Denver.

I said in High School that I wanted to travel abroad, see the world and all of that but I'm finding it is infinitely more terrifying to be faced with that prospect than to talk about it. Everyone I spoke to loved Thailand, or at least thought it was fascinating. But at the same time I'm leaving my family, my whole support network and everyone I know physically as well as distancing myself from all of my online friends temporally; Bangkok is 14 hours ahead of Mountain time, at least when we are not on DST.

Still there is little that I can do but go forward. If I stop now I'll probably regret it forever, and always wonder what would have happened if I'd tried it. If I end up back in a month or two broke but wiser then at least I can look myself in the eye later.

So welcome to the blog. As you can see I haven't posted much to it in the past (my prior comments to this are four years old). But this is your home for general Matt and Uji related news, updated frequently and (with hope) interestingly.

Matt/Uji

5 comments:

  1. Dear Matthew,

    Outstanding idea - blog on! Your posts from Thailand will be fascinating. Love, Dad

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  2. Dear Matthew,

    Great idea - blog on! Your posts from Thailand will be fascinating. I will follow your blog accounts avidly. Love, Dad

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  3. Having made such a leap in my life (an eon ago) I know what you are going through. But I am also here to say that you are doing the right thing. Life belongs to the living. One thing about travel, it lets you know you are alive.

    You will spend an incredible amount of time wondering about your next meal and the safety there in of what you are going to put in your mouth. And where you will be able to sleep next and when. And where is your stuff.

    I will guarantee you that you packed too much stuff. I shed things quickly as I traveled. I still think about some of the things that I shed - unwillingly shared to someone who must have believed that they needed it more than I.

    You will be in our thoughts and prayers,
    Leonora

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  4. Your worlds -- interior and exterior -- will expand overnight. I was forever changed by living away from all I knew and I still relish the changes today. Helene

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  5. You're a rock star! I look forward to reading about your adventures.

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